Joy (Again)

I first blogged this a year and a half ago, and then I completely ignored the blog (AGAIN.)  In my defense, since then I went through another pregnancy while working and had our third and final child, who is now a beautiful six month old.  As I read this, I realized it still has some truth for me, so I'm adding some edits and reposting.

I don't seem to be very good at this blogging thing . . . it is something I always intend to do and forget to do. Plus I'm not sure if anyone even cares! :-) Back when I was stamping, I was a pretty regular poster on my stamping blog, and I felt good about that because I was sharing my creations! I'm not sure if I believe that my words are enough.

Eh, I'm doing it anyway.

I am wanting a change in my life, but I'm not sure what. I need to get healthy first (this darn cold is hanging on forever.) {9/23/12: Have a cold again now!} Then I need to get moving . . . cleaning out the junk of my house and my life, and filling both with only "things" that bring me joy. {9/23/12: Sadly, this is how my life seems to continue on, year after year, with me desiring to unclutter my house and my life, and still not knowing how or where to begin.}

My children and husband are kind of the only thing that bring me joy right now. I love them. But a bit of me wants to be selfish and have something else, something that is just mine . . . I just don't know what? Do I start stamping again? Multi-media art? Writing? Photography? I need to learn to use my new camera and get it off the auto mode!!! {9/23/12: A little more is bringing me joy now.  We have found a new church that we are really enjoying, and I'm meeting some new people that I really like.  I am back to work and mostly enjoying my job.  Our baby girl is the happiest baby I've ever seen, and she just makes me smile constantly!  But I'm still longing for something that is ME, but not ME AS MOM OR WIFE... does that make sense?}

{9/23/12: Some days it is a struggle for me to remember to not take for granted the great things in my life.  Especially when they become overshadowed by stressful situations like the fact that I may or may not be losing my job in January, and no one is able to give me a straight answer about that!  I'd like to try to get back to this blogging thing and maybe that will help me sort things out.}

What brings you joy?